well... it's that time again...
FRIDAY ..
pre-weekend.. post-workweek
a little breath of fresh air.
today i have more on my mind than normal.
I have seen my sweet Bug a total of one hour since this past saturday... and my heart feels like it's been ripped to shreds. I know that for some people this is "the norm" ... and I shouldnt be "complaining" but this is my feelings .. and what i feel is well, what i feel... I have been trying my best to be "fair" in this whole situation.. but as every day passes ...fairness seems to be less of an issue. The real issue, in my opinion, is the well-being of my lil girl. Next week we are going for mediation ..one more time.. and hopefully we can come to some sort of agreement on what's best for Mallory.
Second topic.... weight.
I have been struggling with my weight since junior high... and have never really felt " okay" with my body.. I chock this up to social pressure to be skinny and have that "perfect" figure combined with a few negative people who have always seemed to hit me hardest when I'm down. I have been doing better about gym attendance.. My good friend April and i have been trying to go on our lunch hour... and we've done fairly good so far.. only missing days where we had family stuff going on...
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i took a pause break and went to the gym.. lol great workout.. but im not feeling chatty now.. bleh.. lol
hope everyone has a great weekend :)
happy reading
-a
