Memorializing & dream deciphering.

Memorial Day is here.

Most people get the day off.. but not me. I am stuck at work. Don't get me wrong.. I am blessed to have a job.. but I would rather be sunbathing.. or cleaning.. or spending time with my family and friends. I thank God for all the veterans who have served in the armed forces and the ones still serving today.

Different route of conversation... night before last i had a terrifying dream. It was of a real life even that happened a little over a year ago. It was like a memory within a dream.. It was basically a flashback... of a friend dying.. losing a lover ... being hurt . I woke up crying and it was the worst feeling I've had in a very long time. I wish we knew the meaning behind occurrences like this.  I have not been able to stop thinking about it ever since. ... but what does it mean?


any comments or suggestions are welcomed.

till next time
-a :)

Rainy Mondays

well, it has been unusually rainy and dreary today... much like my mood.  I try to be as positive as possible on Monday.. but every other Monday sucks even worse than a regular Monday. I won't have my bug tonight.. and that always makes my day bad. I miss her something fierce ..like I've lost part of who i am for the day.  I am getting teary-eyed just talking about it. ...

On a different note.. I start nursing school in August! I am super excited to be bettering myself and working towards stabilizing a financial stronghold for my family.  It also excites me to be able to work with the public again! I have discovered this is a passion of mine. I thoroughly enjoy helping others.. and have learned that kind of self gratification is priceless.

I have been trying to practice portion control as well as trying o be more active.i have lost about 8 pounds since the 8th and i feel like that's a pretty good start. ...

i will try to post more frequently . i have a million things to say every day.. but i have been slack about taking time to write them down.

Happy Monday !
-Amanda grace :)